Ah, relaxation … that illusive state of being which many of us strive towards, but very rarely achieve. I’ll admit, I’m an awesome procrastinator, but a terrible relaxer. When I’m tired, stressed, and overworked I will do everything in my power to avoid work — internet surfing, writing lists, planning and re-planning — but I will never leave my desk with the hopes that I will “be inspired” to work. Like a little kid who doesn’t want to eat her dinner, I’ll just sit there, pushing pencils around my desk and moaning about the task at hand. I’ll moan and cry and moan until it’s too late to start anything new, or until the deadline is breathing down my neck, forcing me to pull an all-nighter to get everything done. I can procrastinate with the best of them … but real, honest relaxation? Nope. I’m clueless.
Part of my problem is that I get guilty right away. I’ve always viewed relaxation as a reward to a good, solid day’s work. Perhaps it’s my “puritanical, Northeast work ethic” (as Ed calls it) that prevents me from truly relaxing? The minute I sit down, I start to think about the zillion things I need to do or want to do. The only time I ever really relaxed was when I took the express bus into Manhattan. I get car sick if I read on the bus or in a car, so I was forced to sit, listen to music, relax and daydream. Aside from that, doing anything other than sitting at my desk feels wrong, especially since I struggle with maintaining a daily writing and work schedule. I still haven’t figured out my working method and that means — in my head — I don’t deserve to relax.
BAT FIT CHALLENGE #3: MAKE LIKE MOO AND PUMPKIN — RELAX!
This is going to be a HUGE challenge for me because I honestly don’t know how to relax. Seriously, the thought of taking a “time out” makes my skin crawl; but I’m going to force myself to do so. I can’t make any guarantees that “relaxing” won’t drive me up a wall or freak me out, and I won’t make any claims that this will be a successful endeavor. Instead, I’m going to try and do the best I can. After 6:00 I’m off the clock and internet, and I’m taking one weekend day off. I’m not quite sure what I’m going to do with that time, but the goal is to recharge and refocus.
Your challenge, if you choose to accept it, is to take time out to fully and utterly relax by yourself or with your loved ones. And if you have any suggestions for me, I’m all ears.