As of 3:30 this morning, all of the packing was done and all of our things were stuffed into the POD. Stuffed is the key word here. After all the boxes, bed, and the furniture my Pop made, we ended up leaving our furniture. Our desks, altar, breakfronts, chairs, dressers, and dining table and chairs are all still in the apartment. After speaking with moving companies and the POD folks, it would be an additional $3,000+ to move it and that means the furniture stays. We calculated how much it would be to furnish our new place and it would cost about the same as if we moved it. Most of our stuff is from IKEA and it’s mismatched. I’m not upset about leaving everything here. For the first time in my adult life I’ll be able to “style” my home instead of furnishing it piecemeal, and that’s really exciting. I feel like … a grown-up! Holy smokes!
The empty apartment feels strange. It’s as if the meat is gone and all that’s left are the bones of my life. Like the trees outside my window, my apartment has lost it’s leaves, its color, its wonder. We are left with the Winter …
I prefer winter and Fall, when you feel the bone structure of the landscape — the loneliness of it, the dead feeling of winter. Something waits beneath it, the whole story doesn’t show. ~Andrew Wyeth
and like the upcoming Solstice the light will return and we will start planning our gardens. In the darkest and coldest night the Sun is born and the fire starts to grow in our bellies. The Spring is going to be glorious and soon the leaves will be on the trees.
Our reality is going to be quite simple for the next two weeks. We’re sleeping on an air mattress, cooking in our camping pots and pans, and spending our evenings talking, playing games, and reading. I didn’t pack my knitting so hopefully I’ll finish the sweater I started forever ago. I’ll be making out Yulemas cards and there’s talk about getting a small tree to brighten our bare apartment. The simplicity of this time will do us some good. It will ground us, make us more aware of our own breath, make us focus on what matters most. I am looking forward to the quiet.
As I was writing this post our POD was picked up to be shipped first to New Jersey for overnight storage, and the off to Texas tomorrow morning. I can’t believe my whole life is in that thing! My photos, books, research, clothing, knick-knacks, etc. … everything is in that container. Good grief! This is so nerve wracking!
And away it goes. WOW! This is so surreal … see you in Texas, my memories. See you in Texas, my work. See you in Texas, my life. Until then, it’s time to breath and just “be” for a while.