Repotting Plants, an Allegory

Sometimes things don’t fit anymore. Skirts get too tight, pant hems shrink, and worlds … well, they often get too narrow and small. They can constrict and suffocate, preventing any  chance growth. Outgrowing a world that once fit like a glove is akin to a plant that has outgrown its pot. In order to thrive, a plant — like a person — needs a bigger pot to spread its roots. Plants and people need wiggle room to grow. They need the space to come into their own.

Replanting can cause stress for a plant, especially when its roots need to be cut and separated. And it will seem tiny and insignificant in a large pot, but with the right care and cultivation, it will flourish. Of course, nutrient-rich soil, feeding, and proper watering helps the plant in its new home. Changing the soil and adding compost is always recommended, especially for blooming and fruiting varieties.

I have outgrown the pot that I’ve been living in for years as I grow and learn and come into my own. What fit like a glove at one time, is now too tight and too restricting. In many ways I’ve already moved out of my pot. I deleted an old blog that represented where I was and who I was, but not where I am and who I am. I landed a full-time teaching gig at a very large university, expanding my world and understanding of what it means to be a college professor. I am doing a level of research and writing that often surprises me. And, I will be physically moving into a brand, new pot in Texas.

My new pot feels very big and overwhelming. I can’t really see over the sides yet, though the view of the sky is amazing. I haven’t quite figured out the proper ratios of sun, water, and food; but, my roots are strong and the new soil is rich. I wonder what kinds of fruit I will bear?

 

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    • It might have been gone for good. I left it open-ended because I really didn’t know what I wanted to do. Did I want to completely delete the blog and go about my business? Did I want to start something new? I had to really weigh the pros and cons about moving over, nuking everything I wrote, etc. We’ll see what this transforms into.

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  1. I was so excited to see the new blog. I will admit to being a bit broken hearted at the thought that there were going to be no more Curious Professor posts. I let out a little squee of joy when I found this , which for normal people would get strange looks. Luckily for me, I’m the odd one in the office, so no one even looked twice.

    It’s so wonderful to be able to see you grow and be able to follow you in that progress. You’ve been a huge inspiration and role model for me for years and I am just so happy you’re still here.

    I wish you the very best of luck and joy in your news pots, with much growth and a bountiful harvest.

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    • Aw, thanks! 🙂 Deleting my other blog … errr … pot was a hard decision. It’s been with me for years and has seen me through my PhD, writing a dissertation, my Mom’s death, selling my childhood home, and getting this full-time gig. In January I knew that it didn’t fit anymore. I was going through the motions of blogging, doing the same kind of blogs that I’ve always done. While fashion/goth/punk rock blogging is fun, it gets repedative and boring after awhile. And what happens when things just aren’t you anymore? I have no interest in discussing being goth or punk. I have no interest in trying to be a goth in an academic world. What happens when you’re coming into yourself and dressing in ways that have no definition except artsy and off-beat?

      And I wasn’t really feeling Bat Fit this year since I’m struggling with coming to terms with my own body. I’m tired of logging everything I eat and every workout I do. I’m tired of looking at foods as “good” or “bad.” I’m tired of keeping up. I’m just tired.

      Basically, this blog is a clean slate. I’m not really sure what I’m going to be blogging about just yet. I have some ideas, but I’m going to let this one grow naturally. I’m a bit broken and lost right now. Ed calls it a “loss of faith,” and in many ways he’s correct. So maybe this blog and my work here will be about finding my “faith” … and finding my “muchiness/mojo” again?

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  2. I sincerely wish you well as you adapt to your new pot. I hope that you will continue to share your experience with your readers, but can fully understand why you may decide not to. Best of luck in this scary, exciting time!

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